Sunday, August 29, 2010

A Bold Confession or Observation or Something.

You'll have to admit, it takes some cheek to say this:

My focus is shifting from accomplishing things to having fun.

I noticed this during my recent 18-day extra life in New York. I did accomplish a few things, both for clients and myself. But I didn't drive myself crazy over it. And it's entirely possible that the results were, as a result, better.

But whether they were or not, I feel my devotion to self-discipline fading.

I meant to lose three pounds in all that walking in New York. But did I? No, I ate ice cream at some point on probably every hike. On the morning of my return, I weighed exactly the same amount, to the tenth of a pound as I did the day I left. And didn't berate myself about it. (I used to have an eating disorder, so this is significant.)

And I didn't go straight to my office after my overnight bus ride home from Manhattan. In fact, I haven't been there yet. Instead I've been hanging out with Husband Bob and catching up on a few things at home. After all, it's the weekend. And the Emmies are on tonight.

This hedonism may fade; I've seen it happen before. Or it may hang around, and then we'll just see what happens....

In the meantime, it's a good thing that on most days I love doing most of my work.





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5 comments:

kenju said...

I think it is a very good thing you're doing - and as you said - you may find that your results are better than if you had obsessed over them!

Greta said...

I think wallowing in the hedonism is a good thing!

billie said...

I totally support you in becoming a hedonista!!

Debra W said...

I like the evolution, Peggy. We can still accomplish things while having fun, but if we accomplish nothing more than a smile, a hug or an enjoyable meal, so be it! My husband and I are so unbalanced when it comes to this. He's much more for the accomplishing. I am much more for the fun! I suppose that is one of the reasons that our marriage works so well. We tend to meet in the middle!

Enjoy:)

Peggy Payne said...

What a bunch of hedonistas y'all are! Thanks for the encouragement, Kenju, Billie, Greta, Debbie.